photo: A scene from <Sleepless in Seattle>
"Someone who I never met, someone I never saw, someone I never knew was the only someone for me."
— <Sleepless in Seattle>
Recently, my friend have watched <Sleepless in Seattle>.
She said this movie reminds her of me.
I don’t know why, and she doesn’t know why either.
Still, it’s nice to know I crossed somebody’s mind.
We ended up talking about love and friendship.
This friend has a boyfriend, and they’re doing just fine.
I’ve been single for about 2 years now.
People try to set up a blind date for me, sometimes ask me if I’m lonely or not.
and I reply
I’m fine. A relationship is too much for me to handle right now.
I first watched the movie when I was 14.
It was so romantic and magical, I loved it.
I believed, I really did believe that my true love is waiting for me somewhere, and love is just a matter of timing.
But ever since I got into college, I knew this whole idea was a lie.
There is NO ONE waiting for me.
If you want to be in a relationship, you need to earn it.
It’s about survival.
Law of attraction only works if you are a better commodity than others. If you are a defective good, you are always going to be in the elimination list.
I found this truth quite depressing.
Even love is something you need to fight for,
Just like reality, love is a battlefield too.
Maybe it’s because of my current belief.
I found falling in love is the hardest thing in life.
If I fall into something, I bound to be broken.
Why do we fall in love even though we know in the end we are all going to shatter into pieces?